Which means I naturally know every new hip song on the radio...LIES!
Most of what they play on the radio is trash....sorry not sorry.
So I listen to CD's. (if you ever want to send me a mix CD I'll give you my address) Normal people would have a large collection of CD's in their car and change them every so often. Again...not me. Which in this case is a good thing.
We have the mixed CD called "Missionary Car Jams" made by a fellow missionary. In the early stages of listening to this CD I was putting Taylor Swift and Mumford on repeat. Then I had enough, put the CD in the glove box and forgot about it. Some how it wound up back in the CD player and PRAISE THE LORD!
During this intense time of discernment the Lord has been using very interesting things to help direct my heart to the ways he is trying to love me.There is a song on the CD called "Reflection" by Urban Rescue. The chorus of the song goes:
"I wanna burn bright like a star in the night. Sing wild, believe like a child. I just wanna be your reflection"
BOOM!
My heart exploded with JOY the moment I heard that.
That's it!
That's exactly how I want to live my life.
If I want to have a dance party, jump on a couch/bed, jam on my guitar, sing off key and REALLY loud...THEN DO IT!
Jesus wants me to share in the JOY of being HIS child.
As I continue to reflect on this little verse I think about how I want Jesus to just hold me close, and rest in his arms. I imagine him just smiling on me, shouting to all who will listen "THIS IS MY BELOVED DAUGHTER, WITH WHOM I AM WELL PLEASED" (Matthew 3:17)
I don't have to prove my worth, he already knows it. I can't make a wrong choice in my discernment IF I am seeking something that is going to benefit the kingdom.
Pray for me as I head to Haiti on Sunday to continue on this journey of constantly saying YES and discerning the will of God.
I'm praying for you.
