You can do it, HE can help.

Tonight I will be speaking to about 60 8th graders preparing for Confirmation. I received an email from the grade level coordinator asking for me to do this about a week ago. Ironically on The Feast of the Immaculate Conception. Oh no big deal Mary's saying YES so I guess I will to. Well as the hour gets closer and closer I get more and more anxious about talking. 8th grade is rough, I didn't like being in that grade I can't image what its like now. But I said YES because these words I speak tonight are not my own they are HIS. Who am I to say no to being an instrument of HIS love. Erik would tell us we are planting seeds, I pray that tonight I'm going to plant some seeds. If I never see one of these seeds grow I'm ok with that. That's not my purpose. All I can do is pray for these kids as they continue with their confirmation prep, and as they go through the scary halls of High School and Jr. High. 

As I was preparing for this I've been struggling with what my purpose was. A friend sent me this great prayer.

Hi God. I know you love me and that's why you brought me into this world for a purpose. I love you too and I want you to take away every preoccupation from my heart and where you want me to serve you. It disturbs me that sometimes I get confused. When the right time comes for me to fulfill my purpose of creation reveal it to me with a convinced heart and mind to do it. 

As Advent comes to a close I pray you are getting your heart ready for the GREATEST Christmas present of all time. JESUS!

Ever growing. Ever changing. Ever loving.

These past 13 days since I've been back at Leo as been challenging to say the least. God has me at Saint Leo at this time in my life for some reason. I may not have that reason figured out now, or ever for that matter. I'm becoming more and more ok with that statement as my relationship with HIM grows.

In the past 13 days I've gained a friend, lost a friend, wrote 3 papers, took 4 finals, laughed till my stomach hurt, ate more food out of my fridge, and cabinet than I realized I had, ordered dominoes more times in my life, said a goodbye and many "see ya later's".

In the past 13 days I've talked with my sisters about life,

In the past 13 days I've applied to Covecrest for the second summer in a row, I've continued to discern where God is calling me.

In the past 13 days I've had great conversations with a woman whom I respect, and I've had to tell people they are wrong, I've had to help people when they have fallen, dried eyes of sad friends.

In the past 13 days , I've prayed, I've allowed HIM to love me, I've given my life to HIM, and said YES even though I'm afraid.

If you only had one day left would you be proud with what you did yesterday?