Signs and Wonder

I never really understood why people prayed for signs and wonder. This summer I have become more aware of what the Lord was doing in the lives of others with their signs. The Benzinger family and hundreds of others prayed for months for their children to come home and they did. The Martin family was docile to the Holy Spirit and now they are married and have a baby on the way.

I was just sitting here confused...until yesterday. I had to give a speech at Matriculation yesterday and I was beyond nervous. As I was in my apartment getting ready to go speak I was fumbling around my apartment, and their was a town of butterflies in my stomach. When I went to brush my teeth I grabbed my toothbrush and almost put my deodorant on it, instead of toothpaste. THAT is how nervous I was. So I took a few minutes to myself and prayed, and I texted my pray worrier sisters and asked them to pray also.

As I was sitting on the stage I kept looking around for a familiar face to grab a smile from. Someone to ease my nerves. But I just couldn't make eye contact with any of my sisters. So I looked up, and right on the back wall was the crucifix. Right there, staring at me the ENTIRE time. My best friend was already there and I could do nothing but smile. I started to get a little more anxious when they were calling my name and I was able to see a bit of the flowers right in front of the podium and there were yellow roses right in front of me. Now those yellow roses are very symbolic for me. It is the flower of my sorority, it represents friendship, and it is the flower I have tattooed on my foot in memory of Nan.

God provided peace and calm in my heart at that time. If I wasn't aware of the way he was moving in my heart and the signs and wonders he was performing I wouldn't have felt calm. Praise God for his plan, and moving mountains in my heart.

I do have to speak again at 4pm, so prayers would be greatly appreciated!

Signs and Wonder

I never really understood why people prayed for signs and wonder. This summer I have become more aware of what the Lord was doing in the lives of others with their signs. The Benzinger family and hundreds of others prayed for months for their children to come home and they did. The Martin family was docile to the Holy Spirit and now they are married and have a baby on the way.

I was just sitting here confused...until yesterday. I had to give a speech at Matriculation yesterday and I was beyond nervous. As I was in my apartment getting ready to go speak I was fumbling around my apartment, and their was a town of butterflies in my stomach. When I went to brush my teeth I grabbed my toothbrush and almost put my deodorant on it, instead of toothpaste. THAT is how nervous I was. So I took a few minutes to myself and prayed, and I texted my pray worrier sisters and asked them to pray also.

As I was sitting on the stage I kept looking around for a familiar face to grab a smile from. Someone to ease my nerves. But I just couldn't make eye contact with any of my sisters. So I looked up, and right on the back wall was the crucifix. Right there, staring at me the ENTIRE time. My best friend was already there and I could do nothing but smile. I started to get a little more anxious when they were calling my name and I was able to see a bit of the flowers right in front of the podium and there were yellow roses right in front of me. Now those yellow roses are very symbolic for me. It is the flower of my sorority, it represents friendship, and it is the flower I have tattooed on my foot in memory of Nan.

God provided peace and calm in my heart at that time. If I wasn't aware of the way he was moving in my heart and the signs and wonders he was performing I wouldn't have felt calm. Praise God for his plan, and moving mountains in my heart.

I do have to speak again at 4pm, so prayers would be greatly appreciated!

Life of an RA

After a beautiful week of RA training I have begun to really my purpose....to serve the Lord humbly in all I do.

21!?

I turn 21 in about 4 hours......woot!

I'm pretty stoked for tonight because the people who I love will be together, minus a few. But still God has totally provided for sisters to come visit for the night. An added bonus is getting to have a sleep over in my apartment with all of them after, which I never had a birthday sleepover, so that's pretty epic.

At dinner tonight I was talking with two of my sisters about how after you turn 21 there aren't many big or memorable birthdays to look forward to. When you turn 10 it's your first double digit age, then 13 your finally a teenager. 16 you get a big party, and your learners permit. 17 you get your drivers license, 18 you can vote. 19 is your last teenage years, 20 is your first twenty, 21 your legal. Then what? You die? Oh at 25 you can rent a car..woot.

As I was reflecting about what's next after 21 it hit me, HEAVEN! Duh! I mean how exciting is heaven going to be. It's like a birthday everyday because you can see the people whom you love the most daily! How beautiful is that.

So today I pray for you and the gift you have been in my life. Thanks Mom and Dad for choosing life.

Is God calling you?

Since the last week of camp I've been wearing this bracelet that says "Is God calling you?" My prayer has been revolving around that. Of course he is calling me, but am I going to pick up the phone. 


I'm still praying about that. I know that I'm called to be a missionary, but where and when that all fits into God's plan is so unknowing. That's why I don't want to pick up the phone. If I do, I know that God's going to answer that question for me and I'm not quite sure if I'm ready for that answer. 


Sirach 32:14 
" He who would find God must accept discipline; he who seeks him obtains his request"


BAM TRUTH. 


Pray for a willingness in my heart to pick up the phone!